相信未来

曾几何时，为了一个时空段的感动，以为可以在电影中吸取生命的力量。

暂回头，不论痛、悲、喜、怒、哀，都是别人的梦而已。

或许我的迷乱、沉沦、自我放纵不该找这么个借口。

这些天，血管里的血在缓缓的燃烧。

因为，今生今世那些我不敢释怀的。

认真过自己的人生，不需在别人的梦中游荡。

这两周开始生病，而且还传染了不少人，庆幸的是不算太严重，大量服药后很快就好转了。不过很可惜，错过了柴可夫斯基，不过其实就算我没病可能要不会去吧。只是很巧合，头晚8点服了安眠药睡觉，早上感觉轻松不少，在车上昏头昏脑的听到广播说已经结束了。虽然很难说明，但这事总是觉得似曾相识。

今年我认识的人和我朋友认识的人有好几个得了癌症，年纪都不老。真是不知从何说起，生命就是这么脆弱，却要承担那么多使命，悲欢离合，生老病死。那么多梦想、那么多未竟之事到头都是一地碎片。不知道将来我死的时候是会回想这辈子的快乐、悲伤、荣耀、遗憾呢，还是只想着如何多活一天，或者能心平气和的等待让往事如尘。其实我们都是被命运作弄的小虫而已。虽然很难说明，但这事总是觉得似曾相识。

两根直线能够平行已经很不容易，到了一个时期注定要发散开，反过来想想，也是好事，注定要发生的事情还是早点发生的好。这也是似曾相识的感觉。

昨天晚上看了一部音乐剧《Mamma Mia》，原来以为ABBA离我的距离很遥远呢，原来这么多年间接被动的都听了不少，看着电影才发现原来这么多熟悉的曲调都是他们的。早先还以为他们和平克.佛洛依德是一路的。看后感觉不错，心情也好了不少，我觉得这部片子今年肯定能那个什么奖。下面是我最喜欢片尾曲 I HAVE A DREAM。  

引用

YouTube - Damien Rice - Cold Water
  

April:

Forget about the real deal, you don’t find it, it finds you.

it means that you get to a certain age and then you are ready, you know, you are  ready for kids or a commitment or, you know a mortgage and the person that you are with then, they become the one.

Hayes:

So you are saying it is no who, but it is when.

April:

Exactly.

前天看了电影《Hairspray》一部歌舞剧。原来看了介绍是喜剧本想用来调节一下最近的情绪，谁知是彻头彻尾的音乐剧，本人对这类电影从来是没精打采的，尤以红磨坊、贝隆夫人为最。好在我还拖着看了看，结果拖到一个重量级的曲子：
I Know Where I've Been，配合电影的情节唱的极其有分量，由于基本上没有见过黑人唱摇滚的所以我不大听黑人音乐，通常黑人的嗓音我是不大喜欢的，大概是没有明确的精神，所以很多时候娱乐性太强了。这首歌主题非常明确，唱的是正气十足。感想就不一一列写了因为每次听总有新感觉出现。

There's a light
In the darkness
Though the night
Is black as my skin
There's a light
Burning bright
Showing me the way
But i know where i've been
There's a cry
In the distance
It's a voice
That comes from deep within
There's a cry
Asking why
I pray the answer's up ahead
'Cause i know where i've been
There's a road
We've been travelin'
Lost so many on the way
But the riches
Will be plenty
Worth the price we
Had to pay
There's a dream
In the future
There's a struggle
We have yet to win
And there's pride
In my heart
'Cause i know
Where i'm going
And i know where i've been

There's a road
We must travel
There's a promise
We must make
'Cause the riches
Will be plenty
Worth the risk
And chances that we take
There's a dream
In the future
There's a struggle
We have yet to win
Use that pride
In our hearts
To lift us up
To tomorrow
'Cause just to sit still
Would be a sin
I know it, i know it
I know where i'm going
And lord knows i know..
Where i've been
Oh! When we win,
I'll give thanks to my god
'Cause i know where i've been

第二首是片尾中的压轴曲：You Can't Stop The Beat。影片总结性的宣言，热血质的歌曲，为啥没有被我冠上傻帽的头衔呢？哈哈，我非常喜欢这句话“You Can't Stop The Beat”，所以有时候就该帽一回！so dont let the beat been stop，include youself。

TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!

lush的伟大作品，不论曲，词，还是演唱都是完美主义的典范。个把月前与肥鹅合作翻译了一下，此版本我觉得暂时还能用了，不过觉得很多意思还是无法说出来。这段时间一直想把它写上来，反正是各种各样的有事没事，最后拖到现在了，所以也不管还要不要改，想起来要改再说吧。

  

Lush When I Die 当我死去的时候

If you walked in now 如果你此刻出现

I wouldn't start I wouldn't frown 我不会害怕不会退缩

And if you just appeared 如果你一闪而过

I woudn't cry or think it weird 我不会惊叫或觉得离奇

'Cause you are still around 因为你一直在我身边

You're in the air, you're in the ground 空气里还有你的气味，地上还有你的痕迹

And you can't go away 其实你根本就没有走

I am afraid you're here to stay 我知道你始终都在

Friends don't understand 可大家却不这么认为

They close the door, they raise their hands 他们关上门摊开手

She says she heard your voice 敷衍说也听到你的声音

Of course she does, she has no choice 其实他们只是为了慰藉我,不是吗?

I was hours ahead 几个小时前

When they removed you from your bed 他们把你从床上抬走

They drank all the while 这些整日醺醉的家伙

Until you said goodbye 无视你尚未道别

Why are we sitting here in ourselves? 为什么我们会呆坐着？

Why are we sitting here in ourselves? 为什么我们看着你走了却什么也没做？

Why are we sitting here in ourselves? 难道我们什么也做不了吗？

I don't look up, I don't look down 我不再四顾

I look ahead and make no sound 只管正视前方一言不发

My love was there, 那里 我曾经的爱

I only stare 可我只能这么看着.......

Healty in my dreams 多希望是一个梦啊

Is what you are, is what is seems (那样的话)你是那样的真实

What does it all mean? 可这都是徒劳的啊

You're only hiding behind a screen (现实是)你只能在幕后

Curse the English day 我要诅咒这该死的人间

For what it forces us to say 是它逼我们说

Banish all the pain 要驱除所有的痛苦

'Cause when I die, die 只为当我死的时候，死的时候

I'll see you again. 我可以再次与你相会